I drew those pictures in my autograph book in JC, that was how i kinda look like during JC time, long pony tail, always have blue rubber band, and always have my bumble bee with me until my classmates associate bumble bee with thu huong. (I will keep my long hair again after this, some how i think I feel more comfortable having a pony tail than a hair band)

I miss my teacher in JC. Teaching with a passion must be one of the most honorable thing on earth. Being a teacher is not just about improving students' academic results, it's about teaching them to have a heart, to care, to trust themselves and other people, to stand up for their friends, and to laugh and be happy.

I like to teach, that's true. I'm not a teacher though, just a tutor, and i'm not the most gentle tutor on earth, far away from it... I know I raise my voice at my student, even in front of her parents (somehow when things get on my nerve, i become oblivious of people around me, only to feel kinda embarassed realising it after that), because she said 'i think i can't, i'm gonna fail tomorrow. i think i study also no use!', i scold her not because she's not as smart as any other person can be, but because i don't want her to quit before she even tries.

What is the point then, thinking you're gonna fail even before the battle starts, are you gonna get anywhere at all? If you said you're gonna fail, you don't need to go for it then, do you? just stay at home thinking of failing? is it all you wanna do? Is that how you're gonna help yourself achieving your own dream?

I said all these without knowing that my student almost cried. To my horror, i realised it after she kinda made a sniffing sound.

I know my words may not be as sweet as you want it to be, we are more like friends than tutor and student, and i hope you know that i scold you from the point of view of a friend, not a lecturer.

And my student stood up, drank her water, went to the toilet washed her face, and she returned with a smile. And i know she understood what i meant, "yeah! let's continue with our lesson!"
It is more often than not that i spend quite a lot of time telling my student how i think she might change her concept of school, of people viewing her as 'not belonging to their type'.

I'm not anywhere near being a teacher who has 100 of students under her care, because i'm just a normal tutor friend, but i know whatever form of teaching it may take, it is a meaningful thing. A happy smile at the end of the day, even though i may have cursed it having to wake up to go for tuition (as all of you guys know, it's an achievement for me to wake up ontime for lesson, i just love sleeping).

It is more than seeing my student's grades improving, it's about seeing her being a more cheerful person, seeing her being more confident of herself,and seeing her being happier with her firends. She still moans over things and still 'bargains' with me to go for more tuitions because she can't understand her school work, i would still scold her now and then, and still complain to my friends about having to go for tuition on certain days and can't catch a movie or something. But it warms my heart when my student says 'thank you' to me for teaching her, or when she gets some presents for me after she goes for trips overseas.

I don't know if i would ever become a teacher in the future, my friends often tell me that my students will surely, definitely, absolutely 'bully' me (because i would be mistaken as their friend, not teacher taking into account my not-very-ladylike and clumsy behavior.... Evil! I would like to remind you that i'm a girl, ya? i'm a girl you know, so a girl is naturally girly, isn't she?). Okay, i won't totally brush away the fact that it could be true i may be 'bullied' by my students, but wait, i can be fierce at times if it is something that i feel is not right hee hee.. Yes, the word is there, I FEEL! no ground for feelings, it is just purely intuition. But I think people feel happy when they can follow their heart, and don't have to force themselves to bahave in a way that is depicted my the society.